SON BROTHER
In Memory
Son/Brother
A year has come and gone, and it is as painful now as it was then when I had to say goodbye to my darling little boy who was a man, but he was my baby. I walk in a fog praying I will wake up and it has all been a dream and that my nightmare is over. It is still difficult to hear your name and your memories are like stakes that pierce my heart. It is so unnatural for a mother to say goodbye to her son, but yet life does not always unfold as it should. Your memories are all I have and some bring me to tears and other that makes me so proud and honoured that God allowed one of his angels whom I called my own. If I could only hold you in my arms once again I would never let go, but you would not let me hold you forever. Your darling green hazel eyes that would light up a room and your smile so warmed my heart. I sit and remember you running around pretending to be batman as a little boy and who knew you would grow up to be my hero, always watching over and protecting me and I know you still do. The memories of flowers you picked from other peoples gardens on your way home, because you wanted to make me happy and the twirling of my hair which was a comfort to you as a child, as you would look at me with so much love and compassion. You knew what to say to make me give in; lifting me in the air making me laugh so hard I couldn’t breathe and now I find it hard to catch my breathe and I keep running, pretending I am fine, with my soul in agony, and I cry alone. There are no words that Could ever express how much I love and miss you, and life keeps moving forward and I feel so guilty at times when I am able to laugh and with spring now here and everything coming back to life, I will see you in flowers, the butterflies, the warm days when we would sit on the swing with no worries just you and me, talking and laughing just being care free. Your presence in life was so short but you left a legacy of love and your compassion for others whom you always put first. You were quick to please and gave from your heart. I wish I could have told you more how much I loved you and how you were the rhythm in my heart. You made me feel like I was the best Mom in whole world and how you made me feel I could do no wrong. My beautiful little boy, you left without saying goodbye and it feels like so much was left unsaid and I wonder did you know just how much I loved you, and how proud I was of you for just being you. My heart longs to say all that was not said and my arms ache to hold you once again, but I know that you are at peace and my day will come, and I will get to see and hold you once again. My life was a blessing to have been called mom by your sweet lips and how lucky we were to have such an angel in our mist, for now I will leave you with God, Steve and Kay at your side and know how much I loved you, and forever will miss, and until we meet again, I will leave in peace and love of Gods almighty hand. Love forever Mom.
